It’s a work in progress….

With the single day count down approaching to my 29th birthday, the episodes of my every day life seem to take more of my thoughts then normal. What makes me happy? Why do I do the things I do? What is I want to do? Who do I want to be? What type of karma am I putting out into the world and is it coming back the same way?

I’m sure most of it seems like random babble thoughts of a semi coherent person. But think about those questions and answer them yourself. Especially the last one. Some times we tend to take people and things for granted. We want so much from them but tend to give so little. I constantly think about what is it that I’m requesting from my own close knit circle and what am I giving in return. Now I must admit, 7 times out of 10, I’m most likely on the receiving end but I do try to turn the tables.

I’m currently in the process of taking a step back and re-evaluating a personal situation where the other person thinks I don’t listen to them and I make mountains out of ant hills. I care more deeply about this person than I think they truly realize, but we don’t do well with communication. They go above and beyond to make themselves available for me when time permits and try to give their all whenever possible. But even with me knowing, I can’t help but think, “But I know there’s more.”  I’m sure they don’t think I ever give them credit when its due, or appreciate their talents or gifts of being in my life. But I do. Life’s to short not to. But then again, I’m not the one that needs to be shown that. I guess I got a lot of work to do. Works in progress.

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